March Hyper-Fixations
Better Late Than Never
March Reflections
March was a better month than February, but it made me realize just how deep I had fallen into depression—and how much shock I was still in over the destruction of my home. At this point, we’re in limbo, waiting to see exactly what comes next. I’m hopeful and excited for the future… cautiously.
Life:
I’m in my healing era… and wow, there’s a lot to heal. We’re taking it day by day, but this month was tough. My grandfather was in the hospital and is making incredibly slow—but meaningful—steps toward recovery. He keeps having nerve pain near his left eye and temple, and doctors haven’t been able to pinpoint the cause. It’s felt like a domino effect.
He was in the hospital for ten days and lost a lot of strength in his legs, so his independence has been greatly reduced while we work to build that strength back. I think it’s all connected to the stress of the moment.
On top of that, his little sister was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.
Please pray for my family or send positive energy. We’re in a deep state of transition—for better or for worse—and I’m doing my best to stay positive through it all.
Health:
I need to lock in, twin… desperately. I’m in a positive feedback loop of having a hard time, justifying treats and laziness, and then staying in that same low-energy place.
I know what I need to do to feel better, look better, and show up for myself in the ways that matter. But your girl is so damn tired. I’ll get there, though. It just feels like I have a never-ending list of responsibilities.
FUCK.
Food:
PEANUT M&M’s have me in a chokehold. Please… someone help me get addicted to celery sticks next month!!!
Music:
🎵 “Trackstar” – Bbyafricka (2025)
Podcast:
🎙️ “Redacted History” – Andre White
Movie:
🎬 Watchmen (2009)
Love,
The Swan